Okay, so… I’ve got to get some stuff out of my chest so BEWARE some seriously whining and angsty feelings are coming.

Okay.

Okay!!!!

I love working on children/teens illustration. And I most definitely love working on cute art. I love drawing princess, I love working on projects for young audiences and I love that the only goal I have with my work is to make people happy and light hearted.

I don’t do cute art because it’s the only thing I can do. I do it because it truly love it, and I honestly do not want to do anything else.

(There are enough dark superhero movies out there people, you do not need me to put more shades of gray in this world, juts let me paint with all the colors of the wind)

I LOVE THIS!

I don’t care if my art is not political, if it’s not appealing for grown ups, if it’s not dark and bloody enough to be taken seriously, I don’t even care that my work it’s not really art at all.

So why do I feel like crap whenever people say: 

"Aww, Irena does cute art! She draws girly stuff, she can’t do (INSERT WHATEVER HERE)

It makes me feel so defeated and useless, and I don’t even know why! What just makes everything even worse.

I do not want approval for work I don’t care about.

I have some good ideas. Yeah, they are all girly as hell and yes a few of them involves princess and glitter BUT WHAT’S WRONG WITH THAT? Girly can be awesome.

wow i’m so glad brazil won this game

i was seriously worried for this country mental state for the past hour

people 

were

not

ok

i was certain that if brazil lost this match this country would go HUNGER GAMES 

but now people are celebrating so hard that a mini earthquake is going on

i really feel like quitting my job so i can start focusing on projects/goals that actually make me happy but everybody says this a terrible ideia and that i just should suck it up because all jobs are boring anyways, etc, etc…

but ugh

i’m so tired of feeling unhappy

and anxious

i just feel like cutting out of my life everything that makes me feel this way

hey last anon that sent me a message!

i was not sure if you would be comfortable with me publishing your message, but i really wanted to thank you for sending me those lovely words and i really hope you are feeling better

art can be really hard, and it’s even harder to believe in your own work

but art is also a wonderful way to share your feelings and thoughts and connect to other people

SO DON’T GIVE UP :)

just finished reading ruin and rising by leigh bardugo and…

I REFUSE TO SHIP MAL AND ALINA

i mean you can not annoy the hell out of me for a entire series and in the last 5 seconds act all cute and make me want to like you

NOT FAIR!!

IT’S A TRICK!!!!

in other news i pretty much highlighted every zoya moment in this book

zoya is the true princess of ravka wait and see

maaaaan

what’s up with that whole slate’s article

i mean

WHY WOULD YOU CHOOSE TO BE ALL THOSE THINGS

it’s 100% ok if you don’t like ya, but why diminish all the people who does?

and why should people feel ashamed of LIKING STUFF???

as teen, god knows why, i was super ashamed of being super into ya, because i thought it made me dumb

an here is the number of things the i gained with all this guilty pleasure: 0

but ever since i’ve started sharing my enthusiasm about so many wonderful things happened!!!

i learned A LOT, made friends, met authors, became friends WITH AUTHORS, got actual paid jobs and all because of ya

so yeah ya is awesome

and i have a lot of feelings about this